[	Current Mood	|	happy	]
[	Current Music	|	Faith No More - Epic	]

My friends Kyle and Ashley had their little girl Wednesday morning. Her name's Grace, she's 6 lbs. She is so beautiful! I love her. :]

[	Current Mood	|	blah	]
[	Current Music	|	Disturbed - Stupify	]

For no reason I'm in a stange mood. I just went through all my old livejournal posts. I'm wondering where Josh is, since he usually comes on when he gets home from school at 2:30, who knows, maybe he's sleeping or didn't go to school today. I love him, yes I do. I know, cliche cause I've said it about everyone else. But yeah, this time it's real. He's a good kid, we get along well, his mom loves me, my mom loves him. It's all going very well. I just wish I knew why I'm in this strange mood, it was a good day. It still is a good day, there's just this weird feeling around me. Hm, I probably won't figure it out. I'm staying over Josh's tomorrow so I can go to the hospital with him Thurday morning. [He's having an endoscopy]. Well I hope the results come back fine for that and everything. I also hope everyone's doing well, because I dont see/ talk to anyone much anymore.

-Jess

[	Current Mood	|	loved	]
[	Current Music	|	The Fray - Look After You	]

So, finally. I found the guy I'm meant to be with. I love him more than I have ever loved anyone. I can comfortably speak about anything with him, I can talk about the future and not get all nervous or think it's too pushy. I mean, from the exact moment we met we've been comfortable together. One look, and we were perfectly comfortable with each other. It was amazing and so unexpected, I usually don't talk to people much the first time I meet them, let alone hold onto them or anything.

Is it possible to love someone this much? I was so depressed before I met him, I even had a few breakdowns and now everything is fine. The only time I cry is when I think about if something were to happen to him, or when I worry about him. But that's just because I can't stand to think someday I wont be able to listen to his heartbeat again. I want to be with him always, I don't want anyone or anything else.
I love Josh, yes I do.

-Jess

[	Current Location	|	My Room	]
[	Current Mood	|	happy	]
[	Current Music	|	Bullet For My Valentine - Hit The Floor	]

By far this has been the best weekend of my life. Or at least that I've had in a long time. Saturday I hung out with Kimi and Ed at Ed's house. We went swimming and hung out, then I stayed over Kimi's that night and baked cookies. Sunday afternoon I had a family dinner with Kimi's parents, brothers, and grandparents. Then I worked for a few hours. Monday, today, we [Me, Kimi, Ed and Lenn] went to the beach in Old Lyme. It was Lenn's first time going to the beach so it was cool. He kept saying he liked how the sand felt and how cool it was there. All of us even went for a walk on the beach so that Kimi and Lenn could collect shells. It was so much fun today, I wish it didnt end. But that's ok I'm sure its not the last time we'll all go out.  He's funny and well... interesting to say the least. But we'll see how all that goes. For now all I have to commemorate this day is a few pictures and some bite marks. lol.
-Jess

[	Current Location	|	My Room	]
[	Current Mood	|	happy	]
[	Current Music	|	Donovan - Hurdy Gurdy Man	]

Well life has been interesting. I've decided to take time to have fun and keep intouch with friends the best I can while my life becomes increasingly busier. I'm having a bit of trouble with my relationship, but oh well, I'm not going to stress about it. Anyway; back to the subject of this post....

I bought a car!!

Classes I'm gonna take this semester at Tunxis;
Monday/Wed -
Humanities: 1-2:15
Elementary Algebra: 3:30-4:45

Tues/Thurs - 
General Bio: 5-6:15 [Lab 6:30-9:10 Thurs.]

Online - 
Composition

-Jess

[	Current Location	|	Home	]
[	Current Mood	|	depressed	]
[	Current Music	|	Green Day - Good Riddance [Time of Your Life]	]

I miss when everyone used to hang out and have fun on friday nights. Or anytime in general. I find myself sitting around thinking about the nights that everyone would go out and have fun more and more often. I dont know why, maybe it's just my way of trying to hold onto what I have. I miss sitting in Denny's with Will, Mindi and Sean. I miss the crowded nights at DM when you always knew some one and could always find someone to talk to when you needed them. I miss the feeling that I'm not replaceable and that people cared. I'm not saying that I dont get that feeling from anyone anymore, but it's just not as strong as it used to be. I guess expecting people to keep their relationship with you the same while your own relationships change isn't a reality. Anyone I dont talk to as often as I should, or used to, I'm sorry. You know I love all my friends and you're all close to me. Even if it's not as close as I'd like to be. I just wish I could keep things the same. I'm feeling desperate as I realize people are slipping away from me, and I just can't bare losing anyone. Whether it's because they're moving, or I just simply won't see or talk to them them as often anymore... I needed to say all this.
-Jess

[	Current Location	|	My Room	]
[	Current Mood	|	tired	]
[	Current Music	|	Scooter - The Logical Song	]

• iPod nano
• Claddagh ring
• The Crow: Wicked Prayer
• A Perfect Circle - Mer De Noms
• Korn - Greatest Hits Vol.1
• $25 to Hot Topic
• $150 cash altogether
• Bath Stuff
• Phone Card
• WoW Game Card
• Candy